organised chaos

Coincidentally enough just last night I went through my (now lifeless) wp blog.

Funny, I used to “write” write too. Man. Did I ever. I read every archived post over and I think of the way I choose to express myself now and I don’t know how I got here.

The spark. I miss it too.

But you know what? Despite it all, I’m glad I never decided to stop. And I’m glad you never did, either

Yeah, I understand what u mean but just don’t stop writing. I love reading ur entries (same goes to ur blogging friends which I happen to flick through every now and then).

All the best Lubnaaa - and ur fellow friends.

I’ve been having that for the longest time but learned that the trick is just to keep writing no matter how painfully awkward the drivel you write sounds Keep your skin thick and your mind wide, wide open and all desperate-like. The muses are bound to take pity, yeah?

I wish I can let my thoughts flow as freely as before, too, before the interference of the lecturers, or before any of these exhaustions.

(weirdly enough the word verification below shows the word ‘draining’) .. mcm sesuai je.

maddie, how did we do it? how did we manage to pull off writing without thinking, and managing long paragraphs on end? and we actually made sense!
but you’re right. in a way, we never really did stop, even if what we do now are fractions of what we did then.
ps-i’m glad you never stopped either. i thought the end of wp was the end of it, before i found you again. hehe.

niko, thank you very much, although i can’t see much worth reading here anymore. ben franklin said write something worth reading, or do something worth writing. i’m working on the latter currently, i just don’t have time to write about it! the sad thing is, i never had to try to write before this. now it’s a struggle. that’s the hardest thing to accept.
thank you for the good luck wish! i’m sure my friends appreciate it as much as i do.

ariel, i like your advice! what i’m going to do is maybe start slow. small entries first, and maybe i’ll be inspired to write a full one. i have one in the making at the moment, it’s something i feel strongly about, i just (as i said to niko) haven’t had time to actually write it! but thank you so much for the advice. i see you’ve left your blog add, i hope you don’t mind me hopping over.

j. i don’t know what happened specifically, but i’m really against the interference of lecturers. haven’t they heard something called freedom of speech/opinion? and forcing you into writing a public apology was just wrong.
but you haven’t stopped yet sweetie. carry on. i know i haven’t changed your link add yet (God knows how rarely i come here anymore ) but i still have you on a click of a button!
you, maddie and myself, we need to rediscover our writing self.

Oh, they didnt actually force me to write a public apology.. they asked me what was I going to do about it and I said I’ll write a public apology and delete the entry.

And I felt like it was easier to escape them by doing so. Haih.

Yes, hey ho, hey ho, we need to!