organised chaos

i prefer ______ over doctoring! *gasp*

haha. good thing I make it into a hobby. =)

btw, COMPLETE is organizing another campaign this Saturday. are you in?

I prefer “loyar buruk-ing” than lawyering
Hihi lub~

I am very upset to have found that being a lawyer is JUST NOT for me. But I am glad I would have the LLB, just that practising is..the..last..resort. Sad, when it used to be my number one dream.

It may looks like I know what I am doing, but I have my doubts too. I just know one thing for sure: the legal profession is not for me. I better spread out and find something else. I’m sure you’ll be a fabulous lawyer Lubs!

Adli, doctoring is a hobby?
Or are you talking about the ‘c’ word?
Hehe - I found your blog. Very impressive.

Yeah I know, but honestly I can’t. I made other arrangements before I knew COMPLETE was going to hold it tomorrow, so there’s a clash of timing. Eh did you go to the last campaign?

Btw if you’re going, tell me how it goes. I’ll be there in spirit!

Zack Zaihas, um, ok! What is loyar-buruking?
Btw, sorry, but do I know you?

Mardhiah (because you like your full name )
Doubts are normal, yang. At least you have an idea of what you want to do, where you want to be. Now it’s all about finding the right career for it. Even if the legal profession isn’t for you, at least you followed through with the law degree dream instead of doing something else and wondering ‘what if?’
Thanks so much for the vote of confidence! Insya Allah, Ameen.

my, my… the secret is out then? hahaha. it’s baking actually.

I couldn’t. Had to clean+move in to my new house in sri kembangan in preparation for the next sem (yikes!!) and I didn’t go to the last one either. something crept up at the last minute.
but the one in bangsar this February is a must. I’ll definitely be there!

When I told Afiq with whom I will be working, Afiq said, “You scumbag!” Haha. Because I’ll be working with developers; which sort of defeats the whole purpose of me studying ‘planning’.

At least it’s quite a clear direction for you, as for me, I am not entirely sure what am I doing here… geez.

I wanted to be a journalist. And now?

Adli:
Yep it’s out!
And might I say you really take your baking seriously. I didn’t know half of the ingredients you mentioned in your entries!
So do I get to link you or what?

About COMPLETE, I’m not sure if I’ll be free this weekend, but I might stop by. Hope I’ll bump into you insya Allah! Kalau I nampak, I’ll tegur k? And likewise.

J, lol. Afiq, Afiq. Respons yang sangat blunt.
It isn’t so clear for me too J. Sometimes I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m just going with the flow. At least you’ll have a few more sems to figure it out - I have less than one. I’m not supposed to be confused!

If you want to be a journalist, what’s stopping you? Other than that contract, that is. Mardy’s mum had a degree in zoology and did multiple things, including journalism and activism for child rights and safety. It’s awesome, and I think you have what it takes to do it. Look at my next post on media freedom - I want you to be one of those who’s going to counter media restrictions in this country.

And you know, I think I’m going to take my own advice too.

Ps-My lecturer calls housing developers ‘licensed gangsters’. You’re collaborating with gangsters now J? :p

I prefer… not settling on just one thing. I’ve never been one for commitment. Regarding anything.

You know at some point in my life I’ve wanted to become a laywer (this was around the time I got hooked on Ally McBeal I think. I’d have made a completely incompetent one, you’d know this from that right away)…

Also I’ve contemplated becoming a shopkeeper, a hairstylist, a kindergarten teacher, a singer-songwriter (this one is so far-fetched the only thing I know how to play is the recorder we used to learn back in primary school. Oh wait maybe not even that, now that I probably forgotten how), an astronaut, a journalist with national geographic, a fashion designer, a stewardess (don’t laugh), a zoo keeper, a bee keeper and well you see how this is going, right?

Either I get bored way too easily, or I just don’t know how to make up my mind. Regardly of which, I definitely need to start making changes. Because doctors don’t get to be not passionate about what they do. And I’m trying here.

So if you’re planning on a discussion with JPA (we talking about the same JPA here? The ones who are currently paying me to study, right?) get them to send a research team to find out how it’s really like, having to live here.

I’m grateful for the opportunity, I really am. But this place has broken me.

You and me, we’re so alike in that respect. I didn’t laugh at your ambitions one bit, because I share the exact same sentiments.

This isn’t by any means obligatory, but if you have the time, have a go at this and tell me what you think of the idea.
http://lubnaaa.blog.friendster.com/2007/05/strategi-hidup-bertahan/
If you’re up for it, we have a plan.

Funnily enough, since you mentioned Ally McBeal, I’m going to share with you something I wrote in a 2006 entry (sorry to suddenly bury you in all these writings from the past, but it’s so relevant I simply have to):

Sometimes I find myself wishing I had ignored the fact that I hated science and worked myself silly to become a medical doctor. It’s undeniably the most noble profession I can think of. Perchance, it may be all those episodes of House and Grey’s Anatomy that’s influenced me heavily, but I doubt it. War-ravaged and disaster-struck countries always seek volunteers with some medical background.

I want to be a photo-journalist, a kindergarten teacher, a columnist, a lecturer, a writer, a pilot, an astronomer, an archaeologist, a historian. a bookstore-owner, a ranch owner (I kid you not), an actress, a forensic investigator, a social worker, a football player (this, being the most unrealistic), etc etc etc. ETCETERA. I want to be anything and everything I can be, under the sun.

We really are two funny people, aren’t we Maddie? How uncannily alike my entry and your comment is.

Oh, about J,P,A, those are the initials for Jannah, Puteri Afiq - J, you know, Puteri and Afiq being fellow friends and bloggers. I just thought the coincidence was funny.

But if I ever have a way to get into JPA, I will put a word in about studying there, because I don’t think we should have doctors fixing people when they need to be fixed first. I’m so sorry that Moscow’s done so much damage, but I hope that for every wound you sustain, there’s something to help relieve the pain, though maybe not absolutely, but enough, at least until you come home to us. You’re strong Madihah, I know you’re more than capable to survive this, because you can. If you feel like you can’t, I’m only a keyboard away, ready to remind you otherwise. =)