Kepancitan.
I’ve been in my work clothes and apron these days longer than in my PJs (although on second thought, that’s probably because I’ve been falling asleep in them too after a long day of labour). Ummi and Lutfi had to go off to Sabah for work, so I was left to man the fort at home since we sent our helper back to Indonesia.
I can’t believe I’ve got less than a week left before the new semester begins. These holidays whipped by so fast, and I’ve still got so much to do! I need more time for my unfinished projects; I wish we had at least 2 weeks more. I’m just not ready to go back yet. I’m proud to report that the days I spent lazing about, I can count on one hand. The rest of my break was spent doing something or other, which is more than I can say about my last 3 month holiday. This is good, this is progress.
But I’m still not ready to go back.
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A long while ago, I once wrote that the human heart may be the most resilient, but it’s also the most fragile.
We’ve all had our low points before, and sometimes it gets so bad it feels like our heart’s giving out. It might be due to very different reasons, the degree may vary but I’m sure there’s no distinction when it comes to pain. We’re all familiar with that ache and throb, that heaviness in the chest, the difficulty to even breathe sometimes. And the pain, that constant pain.
I don’t have an immediate cure, and I don’t intend on discussing the mystery that is the Heart, because I could go on and on but words would never be sufficient to explain.
But at this moment, I know of a few people who are going through harder times than others, and although I might not be able to make it better for you and you and you (and for those who are quietly hiding it, and for those I don’t even know), I do have a little something that might help take a bit of the burden off and bring a small cheery smile. This is for the rest of us too, so that we’ll remember to take good care of ourselves, because (at the risk of sounding like a L’Oréal ad), we’re worth it.
I don’t work for free
Please take care of me
This is a message from your heart
Your most devoted body part
Taking blood and making art
This is a message from your heart
Pounding away into the dark
You could thank me for a start
This is a message from your heart
Enough said here.
