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Between stars and satellites

Posted by: lubnaaa | July 28, 2007 |

Currently Playing: Tom McRae - Got Suitcase Got Regrets.

"Put the world in a box.
Turn the sign to the street.
Aim for where the horizon and blue skies meet."

                    Lubnafiles_1

                                                       Northward-bound
                                                            June 2006

I’ve shared the following with a select few, but after some consideration, decided that maybe the people who come by here occasionally to read might understand and relate as well, as nonsensical as the following piece might seem.

This was written on the spur of the moment, so any grammatical errors or lack of elaborate details is to be expected.

I’ve realised something:

That people who find themselves
perpetually wanting to ‘get away from it all’, like migrate to a tiny
foreign place where nobody knows who they are, to disappear into obscurity off of the
face of the Earth, to start Life anew somewhere where new faces reside, are
generally kidding themselves if they think a change of scene is going
to do any good.

Because wherever we are, we’re still us and our
problems still remain ours. There’s no such thing as ‘the grass being
greener on the other side’, when the baggages we have brought with us
continue to be what they are. A change of place doesn’t automatically
bury the skeletons we have in our closets. New soil is still soil. It’s still dirt and mud and rocks. We
still have to take out spades to dig. In a sense, that foreign
place that we’re so keen to escape to is essentially similar to the place that we
thought we’ve said goodbye to. There’s still food, people, cultures,
etc in that new foreign place. It’s the same thing, but of another variety.

So in the end,
we will find ourselves on what we think is a fresh page to turn over,
only to find that there’s no difference when the book is the same, and
past chapters cannot be torn out by simply flipping onto a new leaf.

*It’s frightening to think that flying away on second chances is really just running away from what is never far behind. And once we’ve settled in what is at first unfamiliar, we will find in every reflection all that we wanted to forget until eventually, the unfamiliar becomes the familiar all over again.

Enough said here.


Ps. If you understand, memang salute-lah. I don’t think I quite get it myself, but that’s exactly what I believe.

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Responses -

I don’t entirely agree with you…

I mean, yeah, people will say that they want to ‘get away from it all’ by running away to some remote foreign land, but I don’t believe any of them actually believe they’ll be rid of their problems by running off. They will, however, usually get some good out of it.

You see, it’s unhealthy to stay in a situation or a place that suffocates you. People need to get out to escape routine, to escape from the banality of daily real life. To get out of the uninspiring rut in order to find new inspiration.

Therefore, escaping to a place where no one knows you can do you good, since it gives you a chance to start over and examine where you went wrong the first time.
You can never run from your problems, though, but being somewhere else forces you to think from an outsider’s point of view, and it helps to figure out where the mistakes lie… In order or you to go back and fix it.

OK, I’m not sure Im even making any sense, but… gah. I actually do have a point.

You make sense, dear, I understand. =)

See, this is the problem when I’m not able to capture the core of what I’m trying to say in words..I can only feel it.

I suppose what I meant in whole was in reference to people who MIGRATE, as opposed to leaving for a couple of days. Getting away from it all, like taking a vacation, I can understand. It’s running and staying in a chosen hiding place that I find to be the issue.

I tried envisioning it before - moving overseas where everything seems so much better…but once I got there, it just seemed as though I had that place glossed over only in my mind. What was worse, what I wanted to forget was all the more so starkly with me.

In the end, all I wanted to do was to go to the exact same place I left.

I went to a conferene in UM this morning about travelling, and the panel of people who talked were going on about redefining themselves in a foreign land… I guess some people CAN actually start over. I guess its up to the individual.

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