Currently Playing: The Militia Group-Los Angeles.
Barely a month into the new semester, and already I’m swamped and suffocating. Every subject’s become a top priority. Most of the lecturers (bless them) are intent on every one of us appreciating if not mastering their subjects by leaving most of the work for us to look for. The student with the initiative to be independent wins all, it is implied. In that case, I’d like to see one student take the initiative to go read recommended materials for 6 harrowing subjects on top of the already bulging stack of required readings. If you’re a law student and succeed in doing this without tearing your hair, eyes and heart out, tell me how.
Now under such stressful circumstances, I thought that Public Speaking would be my saving grace at least. It was like that for me last semester; Skills was one of the few classes I really looked forward to because I found it easy to unwind in there. By the end of last semester, I had found a crowd of people from HS, KAED, Engineering and the Sciences course that I could call ‘my other gang’. We all just clicked and connected. Unfortunately, we’ve seperated this semester with all of the old crowd in one section while Raihan and I are in another. What was once de-stressing, is now distressing. While I have nothing personal against my new instructor of this course, his professionalism seems to come off as unfriendliness at times. Also, he’s given us research to do! To be prepared: a 10 minute speech with a slide show on any critical/contemporary issue, due in 20 days. It might not be that big of a deal, but I tend to get a little carried away when it comes to research to the point that I completely abandon other work. Bad habit, I know. Which serves as the perfect reason why we shouldn’t be assigned this in the first place. It isn’t worth it–all that work for half a credit hour.
Kalo dia terjumpa blog ni, kantoilah aku.
Man. I miss the old crowd. The guys and their weird antics (maybe the antics was just Aiman), the girls and our hangout sessions at HS after class. Thank God I still have Raihan.
I’m not about to take a defeatist tone to this though. On the upside, I can start taking public speaking a bit more seriously and really improve on the stuttering and shaking and passing out. I could use a little drive to work at this, so what’s a little strict instructor, research work, presentation and less familiar coursemates to me?
Obstacles to be overcome…
…on top of other obstacles I already have.
This is looking to be one fantastic semester ahead. Sarcasm very much intended.
—————
I had a great time with the girls on Friday night. Pictures from the dinner to be put up later.
————–
Oxford, England.
June 2006
Sometimes I can be so calm, composed and controlled in situations that merit every other reaction but these that I scare myself.
I can’t say I wasn’t shocked. I just postponed any feeling at that particular moment. I chose to not feel.
—————
If you’re just as bored as I am with work and household chores right now, and you think you may have good fodder for a great conversation (not gossip), you know how to reach me.
Enough said here.
Shh… heh.
