organised chaos

thats the philosophical lubna to y’all.

yeah. deep down, we all want to be children for ever. robert schumann even wrote two whole music cycles on the topic..’scenes from childhood’ and ‘album for the young’.

ah, “regret for the lost innocence of childhood.”

but take some comfort that, in essence, we are, and always will be, little children. that is our great strength. we can always grow, and learn, and try, and try again.

nothing is permanently beyond our reach.

Philosophical? Haha. I wish.

And although in essence we may still be little children…its the growing weightage of the burden we carry on our backs that worries me.

And once the burden becomes too heavy, skipping and frolicking for even a second becomes impossible.

And the Impossible becomes the Accepted.

The Accepted becomes the Normal.

And in the end, we forget that we once skipped and frolicked.

Apsal lah aku ni suka sangat bersedih? For God’s sake, someone tell a joke.

u wanna joke? comin rrrrrrright up, baby..

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a man suspects his wife is having an affair. he needs to go on a business trip for several days, so he decides to set a trap for her.

he puts a bowl of milk under the bed, and suspends a spoon from the bed springs, in such a way that if there is any more weight than the weight of his wife on the bed, the spoon will be dipped into the milk, and he will detect it upon his return.

he comes home several days later. the first thing he does is reach under the bed and retrieve the bowl.

it’s full of butter.

luB, i thot of all this, the fear of growing up and all when i turned 18. spm year. yeah i did. and now, i still am afraid of growing up.

and u know what i figured out? that in life, the rule is always to stay positive. live in optimism! it works soo fine that u wun kn0 the real definition of fine anymore! hehe..well, thats how i see it anyways..and, even if u cant think positive; just pretend so. that worked too *grin*

it’s like, if u dun grow up, u myte not think like u do now, u myte not see the world in ways that u never ever thot u wud, ud prolly not appreciate life as u do or will do..u know, that kinda stuff..and gurl, to be silly; u dun need reasons for that! ehehehehehe..be silly for all u want, so long as tak salah tempat n masa lah ye..like, our practice (me,maz,daad n the rest) we go really silly when wo go for shopping and groceries..fun hehe..ngeh3..

oh btw! my blog’s title is no more ‘dun judge me’ but ‘living life and loving it’..it has always been that anyways..gaa!

Zuhairy: I’m going to have to have a word with you, mate.

Ryhn: We’re still young, syg. I hope we’re still able to pull goofy faces 20 years from now! Nevertheless, I appreciate your comments. Always the optimist, aren’t you, dear? =)Thank God you’re my neighbour.

And I’ve seen your new blog layout. Nice.

Zuhairy:great joke!I haven’t had that kind in awhile, I have to say…
Lubna: so what’s with this fear of growing up?!I thought you have already grown up..so why worry about it?You’ve been there!Let us, the rest, do the worrying..oh, and btw, speaking of growing up,I have a touching story to tell you.So remind me to tell you when we have time ok.

ahh lubna, u suffer from a disease that everyone experiences–peter pan syndrome. altho i don’t think urs is that chronic. i’m scared as well. i cant believe we’ll be paying our taxes soon