Today’s Forecast:
"Love can be a surprise, but if you’re willing to do the work, it can be a lovely one. If you’re attached, now’s the time to look at the deeper issues. If you’re single, it’s time to examine your attitudes toward love."
*Double-takes*
You’re friggin kidding me right? I examined it to the point of scrutiny all throughout yesterday..and to sum up what my friends said about me and this rather thorny topic was this:
Abby: You’re weirdlah Lubie. Don’t you like anyone?
(Naah.)
Najia: You’re a late bloomer, you’re too innocent with guys.
Aisya: You’re too nice for your own good, Lubna. Be meaner!
(Or something like that)
Adora: You may not like anyone now, but once you fall, you’re going to fall hard. And once you do, don’t let him go.
(Gulps)
Aight, this is making me feel uncomfortable so I won’t delve any more with this. To be honest, I guess the whole concept of love hasn’t crossed my mind at all with anyone I’ve met, and thank God for guys who enter friendships for only friendships rather than looking for something else. I mean, whats the point of screwing up a perfectly good friendship if both are comfortable with what they have? Except when one isn’t comfortable…major bummer.
‘Open up to me, like you do your girlfriends…’
So belted out Rob Thomas in Lonely No More, but thats just it.
Having a girlfriend does not just mean having a pal, a mate, a companion as it would for guys. It goes waaaaaay deeper than that. Girlfriends are like emotional supporters, mental motivators and are so good at giving you that little bit more spirit and energy to make it past a day sane, that it scares you sometimes. Its an ability guys will never have and never understand.
When I talk about sisterhood, I’m talking bonds so strong they wouldn’t break under the most mighty of currents. Thats how tight girlfriends are. Though we may not share practically everything (a girl’s gotta have secrets) but we do confide and exchange and console and comfort to the point that it gets really personal most times.
So here, I’d like to say thanks to Najia and Aisya for hearing me out yesterday. Here’s an ode to 2 great girls who were patient enough to listen to me ramble for God knows how long without interjecting with their own life story. For once, I actually really shared without holding back. That’s always the case with me, holding back back back because I can never find the right people to talk to, save for a handful over here. What with Rojak scattered everywhere and Zee being in Penang, it gets harder to actually connect with just anybody.
These 2 girls sat out with me, listened carefully (and patiently) to every single bloody thing I’m going through, identified the problems and presented them out to me in their own ways…which was hilarious, come to think of it. Aisya in her typically practical and calm manner, while Naj in her blunt, direct style.
You know, it feels good to be able to talk about good things happening to you and not feel guilty for sharing it, although techinically, this isn’t a good thing. For once, I didn’t feel like I had to apologise…although I did begin yesterday’s session by trying to justify myself (note to Aisya and Naj: Lol, remember that?)
But really.
Thanks girls. All I needed was some time and some understanding, and to just get the stupid burden off my chest. And thanks for the opinions too…made me do some serious thinking.
And yeah, sorry for bending your ears like mad yesterday. But trust me, I felt a whole lot better walking back to my room. Like I was liberated. And because I finally had friends who knew the full blown weight of my dilemma.
Whew.
Hugs and kisses to both of you especially, and to the other girls whom I had spoken to as well, like Adora, Raihan, and Yani.
To Aufa-Don’t worry hun, I haven’t forgotten you. =)
And Abby-gotta thank you for answering my 911 that day. I hit the PANIC button HARD.
And really, to all my girlfriends who at some point or another, have been there for me.
You see? Girlfriends rule!
Enough said here.
